So I figure this is the place to just sum up a bit what happened and what's happening now. Basically, I had a really bad headache that wouldn't go away, which also made me sick and unable to eat anything. This led to ots of sleeping in a dark room because my eyes hurt too much in the light, and then hospital, to another darkened room, and a drip in my arm to rehydrate me. They thought a few different things could be it: glandular fever, VIRAL meningitis (not the bacterial one that can kill you), and I had not one, but TWO brain scans. (And I can confirm that my brain is entirely NORMAL).
So they think I suffer from migraines basically, that I always have done just not as severely as this one. The pain is considerably less now, it kind of comes and goes in waves, and I'm not being sick anymore. One longer lasting effect is that my left eye has gone "lazy" but will hopefully return to normal soon. In the meantime I've got a patch on it (embaressing much?) because it gives me double vision which apparently isn't so good for headaches!
That's all I'm going to say about that anyway, thank you so much for your love and prayers for me... much appreciated! Sadly, whilst still at home (the parents won't let me return to Preston just yet) I'm not getting out crazy much, especially in the crazy cold weather. So this morning I wasn't able to go to church so I listened to a talk from Forum again. I think I mentioned it in the post I did about forum, but it's worth talking about twice!
It was from the digging deeper seminar track "Secure in the Saving God" by Mike Reeves and Angus Moyes. Part 2. He talks about how our righteousness is in Heaven, how it cannot be changed by the way we act one day to the next, but that if we're trusting in Jesus then we are hidden in Christ, that we are IN HIM, and that our status before God can't change.
In talking about the effect that the understanding of this thing: union with Christ has, he quotes John Bunyan and THAT is what I want to share. Its super cool! :)
"One day as I was passing into a field, and that too with some dashes upon my conscience, fearing lest yet all was not right, suddenly this sentence fell upon my soul, 'Thy righteousness is in Heaven.' And methought withal, I saw with the eyes of my soul, Jesus Christ at God's right hand; there, I say was my righteousness: so that wherever I was, or whatever I was doing, God could not say of me 'He wants of my righteousness', for that was just before him. I saw moreover that it was not my good frame of heart that made my righteousness better, nor from my bad frame that made my righteousness worse; for my righteousness was Jesus Christ himself, 'the same yesterday, today and forever'.
Now did my chains fall off my legs indeed; I was loosened from my afflicictions and iron; my temptations also fled away; so that from that time those dreadful Scriptures of God left off to trouble me: now went I also home rejoicing, for the grace and love of God..."
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